I am 26 years old. The baby of three children. I have a sister and a brother, two nephews and a niece. I am currently going to Baker College to become a veterinary technician. I absolutely love and adore animals. If I could, I would rescue them all. Someday, my house will be filled with animals and I can't wait! I currently have two dogs, Mowgli, a Rat Terrier and Piper, a Yorkie.
I grew up in a musical family and I absolutely love to sing. It's a passion of mine and something that I hope to continue to do for the rest of my life. My family always jokes that I'll be the first singing veterinarian. I'm not sure how the animals would feel about that though.
I have a slight obsession with Christina Aguilera. Alright, alright, a massive obsession. I love her voice, her personality, her attitude. I just love her! I'm sure she will be referenced many, many times throughout this blog. I generally refer to her as "my woman," so if you ever see those words, she is who I am talking about. :)
There's a little bit of the introductory crap. Now onto the real reason why I decided to start a blog. To discuss personal things that I have been going through that someone might not necessarily want to know, but this blog will be my outlet. A form of therapy for me. At least I hope so. If someone is going through something similar, maybe they can offer advice or just someone to talk to.
When I was 17, I was formally diagnosed with depression. Although, I feel that I really started to experience it when I was about 12. Dealing with this condition has been a struggle at times and I have definitely had some devastating lows. There have been periods where I only felt two emotions, anger and sadness. That was it. I have been able to get things under control multiple times, but now it seems as if things are changing again. The medication I'm on isn't working as well and my emotions are all over the place. I am currently on the path to figure out if I am bipolar or not. I've done some research on my own and have discussed it with my doctor. I just want to document my journey through this and be able to vent and express what I'm feeling. I don't fully understand this disorder myself so I can only imagine what those on the outside think. Maybe this will give some insight. That's my hope in all of this.
Dont worry girl, I blog because its therapy for me. Just venting out online is good. I know how you feel about depression as I am diagnosed with it as well. I am bipolar and just started telling people this. Its a struggle everyday and sometimes I feel like I can be one person and two secs later I am someone else because of my anger or sadness. When I was 14 I tried committing suicide. I OD on pills, then a year later tried hanging myself. That almost worked, but the wood piece broke off.... after having kids I realize why it didnt work and how I was taking my life for granted. I wouldn't have my kids if my suicide was successful. I got so many chances in life that I will do anything to get out of my depression. Working out helped me a lot with my episodes. Medications didnt work for me and only made me numb and have no feelings! But im sure there is something out there that can work for you. Hope you are doing well girl!
ReplyDeleteI've been diagnosed with severe depression as well, and doctors have been arguing about whether or not to classify me as bipolar for years now, so people can definitely relate, dear! I've always found writing (and my animals, obviously) helped me so hopefully it will do the same for you.
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