End of the Year

We're coming down to the very end of the year. A year that has been full of all sorts of ups and downs for me. I'm more than happy to move on to a whole new beginning. I just wish I were able to have fresh starts in many different ways other than just starting a new year. There are times I still want to just move to a whole new place where no one knows me and completely begin again. But that can't happen. Not yet at least. Anywho, here is a sort of recap from the last week or so:

Christmas was alright. It was pretty much the same as most Christmases with my family. No one is ever really excited about anything. It used to be my favorite holiday. It still is for other reasons, but it definitely doesn't feel like a "merry" time in my house. No holiday ever really does. I still get pretty excited about my gifts, assuming that the person knows something about me and what I actually like. 

I did get a B-dubs gift card, so that's pretty awesome. My sister also got me a crochet book. I'm pretty excited to try some stuff in that. I have 3 scarfs going at the moment though, so it might be a bit before I get to it. I started making one for a girl at school. I really hope she likes it. I think it looks really pretty. She wants it to be a surprise so in case she glances at this, I can't post a picture of it. 

Mowgli got a ton of stuff. He got a new soccer ball, which is his favorite toy. He also got a bunch of different treats. He got a bag from the bar at Pet Co. and he got some other assortments. He was a pretty happy camper. Piper didn't feel like helping, so she stayed in the bedroom. I tried posting the video of him opening the gifts, but it won't work. Boo. :( I'll try again later and see if I can get it to work. He's so adorable.

I went to the mall yesterday and spent some of my Christmas money. I got me some awesome tights that I've wanted for quite a while. I'm pretty excited to wear them. I also found a new store that sells adjustable rings. So now I have a bunch of rings that will actually fit me!!! I'm so excited! I also got a ton of new earrings. I said that I wanted some new jewelry for Christmas, so I got some!

I also went to school and picked up my books for this coming quarter. Oh my goodness! The poor girl that brought them out had a hard time carrying them all. I had to go to the financial office to adjust something and then they were mine to bring home. It looks like I'm going to be absolutely busting my ass this quarter. Sigh. I love school. I really, really do. I just want to make sure I can keep up and do my best. I don't want to be too overwhelmed with everything. Especially with only getting a B in my biology class, I hope I'm able to understand everything as well as I need to. Either way, I'm so ready and excited to go back. A month off is way too long. 

Now, what this blog is all about; an update on the medical front. I still haven't heard anything from my doctor. I stopped taking the mood stabilizer for 3 days and everything made me cry. Everything. So I had to weigh whether or not I wanted to continue to be a blubbering mess or sleep all the time. I decided to start taking them again. They must having leveled out with my body or something because I feel a ton better and haven't been sleeping like I was. I'm actually going to bed earlier and getting up earlier. I'm not holding as much tension when I sleep. I feel like I'm getting better quality sleep also. I still wake up a lot and flip flop, but I feel more rested. My mood feels good. I still have moments, but I'm not sure that will ever go away. I feel a little more hopeful. But that can come and go just as quickly, so hopefully I can hold onto it for a bit.