Looking Forward

Today was a MUCH better day. I had a doctor's appointment this morning and it went pretty well. She increased the dosage of my new medication, so hopefully that will make a difference. She said that if I am tolerating the medication and am not experiencing side effects by the time I check in with her, she will most likely up the dosage again. I really, really hope that this works. I'm still sleeping like shit but she said that she doesn't want to add any other medications until we can get this one nailed down. That makes sense. 

I am also getting a referral for physical therapy for my back. Maybe once I get my back a little better I might start to sleep a little better anyhow. Doubtful, but maybe. My doctor gave me a few things that I have to do. A little homework, if you will. I have to call a place in Grand Rapids about counseling and see what they can offer. I also have to fill out some paperwork and send it to a place that does psychological testing. There, I would be able to find out if I actually am bipolar 2. If not, I'm sure they'd be able to tell me whatever the hell is wrong with me. 

My doctor said that she is glad that I am not working right now. Say what? Can you tell my parents that? She said I wouldn't be able to function in a work environment right now. Especially with going to school as well. We talked about school and the grades I got this past quarter. She was so excited when I told her I got an A, A- and a B, and that I made the dean's list. It was nice to hear her praise. She asked if I had any big plans for Winter break. When I said, "Absolutely nothing," she sighed and said, "Oh good!" I think she's worried about me. Haha. 

I fucking love this!

The people that I have dealt with at this doctor's office are absolutely amazing! The receptionist knows my name. As soon as I walk in, she says, "Hi Tarah! I'll tell them you're here." She also notices when I change my hair. The nurse is so nice and always strikes up conversation with me. The doctors really take their time and ask a lot of questions. It's just nice to feel like they really care and are really invested in my care. I've never had doctors like that before.

Once I was home, I was exhausted and napped for a while. Much longer than I had planned. But like I said, I don't sleep well, so I guess I needed it. Once I was up, I played with Mowgli a bit. He had me laughing so hard today. He's such a goofball. I don't know what I would do without that boy. <3