The Start

This week has been very crazy for me. I had my first week of classes. I feel very overwhelmed with all of the information that has been thrown at me. I need to learn to step back and look at things one at a time, not as a whole. Hopefully that will help me calm down a bit. I've had some ups and downs emotionally; some relating to school and some not. I'm just all over the place right now. Hopefully I can stabilize myself, face forward and move on. 

Day one of classes was good. I had my human relations class and my intro to vet tech lecture. My teacher for human relations seems pretty cool. He reminds me a little bit of Dana Carvey. He also says "Mmkay" a lot and that makes me think of South Park. Haha. I think I'll probably enjoy that class. I've always enjoyed psychology. I plan on taking the psychology course after I'm done with the vet tech course, so... hopefully this will reinforce my excitement for that. My intro to vet tech class is mildly intimidating. There is SO much reading and so many things to memorize. I have trouble retaining everything so hopefully I can figure out a system that works for me. 

Day two, I had my animal anatomy & physiology 1 lab and then the lecture. Backwards, I know, but that was the only way I could schedule it. This class scares the shit out of me! Even MORE memorization than the vet tech class. Plus we're carrying some stuff over from biology and chemistry, so thank goodness I have someone who might be helping me study. I need the help to refresh my memory and maybe that person can explain things better or make it easier for me. I tend to make things more complicated for myself. 

Also, during the lecture, my instructor talked about kidney failure. She went into detail of what the animal goes through and what is happening to the body. She asked if any of us had experienced this with any of our animals. A few of us raised our hands. I couldn't help but start to cry. After hearing what my baby went through physically and what she was feeling, I felt horrible. And I also miss her terribly. I felt like a complete idiot just sitting there crying in class but I couldn't stop it. I'm sure it won't be the last time I cry in this program though. Sigh.

Day three, I had human relations, intro to vet tech lecture and then the intro to vet tech lab. For lab, I have to start memorizing dog, cat, horse, cow, etc. breed names. I swear, this program is going to kill me. I realize it isn't supposed to be easy or everyone could do it. I'm just going to need some encouragement throughout this. I'm terrible with time management too, so I really need to try to keep that in check. 

On the way home from class, I was given the new Lifehouse CD!!! I was stoked. They are my absolute favorite band. I'm actually listening to it as I type this. I have no doubt that I'll love it. I'm not sure it can possibly be better than their last album though. 

As far as personal things going on, I've experienced good and bad things this week. I read too much into things sometimes. I worry about every little thing. I can't help it. I wonder why certain things weren't said. What was meant by something that was said. I want to know how others feel but I can't ask because then I'll be that annoying girl who continuously asks questions. I know exactly how I feel and I feel that I portray that pretty openly. But maybe I'm completely wrong and maybe others feel the exact same way about me. Either way, I'm basically driving myself nuts. I had a conversation about this with a friend a couple nights ago. She just laughed at all of the things I was telling her but could completely relate. Apparently this is a little dance that happens all the time. Well, I just want to fucking know the answers! Haha. I'm so not a patient person and I'm terrible at distracting myself from this sort of thing. Good thing I have a shit ton of homework to help with that!