On November 17th, Trevor and I made it official and got married. We decided to do a simple, small, courthouse wedding. We didn't even really tell anyone that we were planning on doing it, because we didn't want it to be a big deal. We just wanted our parents and a few friends there, so that's what we did. We had been planning this for some time and I have no idea how we managed to keep it so quiet. We never had an engagement, so it was quite a surprise to everyone.
Our intention was not for anyone to feel hurt or left out. We just wanted it to be us and a few others. Either next year or the year after, we are hoping to have a bigger wedding and reception so that we are able to share it with more friends and family. So don't worry. The party will come. :)
A few weeks after we had the wedding date picked and things were pretty much planned, we found out that I was pregnant. I had to stop myself from screaming after I took the test. I was so excited and it wasn't something we were expecting. It was such an amazing surprise for us after what we had gone through previously. We weren't expecting to get pregnant this soon after. When I told Trevor, he almost couldn't believe it. He was so excited. :)
I was 5 weeks when I found out I was pregnant on October 16th, which is pretty early. I called the next day to make an appointment and they decided to make it for November 19th. That seemed so incredibly far away. I even asked if they would want to see me before that since I had previously miscarried. I guess not. Trevor and I just tried to keep a positive attitude that things would be ok.
At my first appointment with the nurse, I had 5 vials of blood drawn just to test for pretty much anything they could possibly test for. It turned out that my thyroid levels weren't where they should be. I have had issues with my thyroid in the past, but things had sort of leveled themselves out and I was able to stop taking the medication. With me being pregnant, they wanted to get me back on the meds just to make everything a little better for me and baby.
We actually had to ask to schedule an ultrasound because they weren't planning on doing one until late January/early February. We wanted to see the baby and hear the heartbeat to make sure everything was alright. My doctor's office was booked for the next couple of weeks, so we ended up having to schedule the ultrasound at Butterworth.
My ultrasound appointment was this morning. The tech did a quick sweep with the belly ultrasound and then she told me that she was going to do the vaginal ultrasound. So that was a pretty scary and horrible experience. She didn't say a word while she took pictures and measurements, which was a little strange to us. This was a new doctor's office though, so maybe they just do things differently. She said that her doctor would look things over and then come in and talk to us about the results.
About a half hour or so later, she came in and handed me a phone. It was a nurse from my doctor's office. She said it wasn't good news and that I needed to keep my appointment with my OB for later on that day. This was going to be our first time meeting our OB as well.
She was really sweet and I liked her a lot. She listened to everything we had to say and all our questions and she explained things as best as she could.
What I have is called a blighted ovum. This is when the gestational sac develops, but there is no baby inside. So, my body thinks it's pregnant and is acting as if it is, but no baby ever actually developed. This is considered another type of miscarriage.
I basically have the same options as I did last time. I can choose to let my body naturally expel the pregnancy, which I don't trust my body to do. I have had absolutely no cramping or bleeding, same as last time, so I'm not sure how long it would take for that to happen. I could also use a medication that would help speed up that process and force my body to expel the tissue, but that didn't sound real great either. I would just prefer to not have to go through that process if I don't absolutely have to. So I have chosen to go with a D&C again. My surgery is scheduled for Friday morning.
The doctor said that these two situations are most likely not related in any way. It's probably just a coincidence and really bad luck. If I end up having a third miscarriage, then they will do some investigating to see if there is something going on with me that won't allow me to have a normal pregnancy.
So, Trevor and I are basically back to square one. We don't plan on giving up and are looking forward to having a family someday. For the time being, we have each other and our two fur-babies. We also have awesome families and friends that will help us through. That's good enough for me. <3
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