I can't believe it's been so long since I've updated! In some ways, I've had a lot going on and in some ways, I've had nothing going on. Let's see if I can gather my thoughts and make a decent, organized entry.
Everything with the band has been going great. We've done a few shows at this point and I'm getting more comfortable as we move along. We're slowly adding new songs to our list as well, so that's a lot of fun. I'm not sure if we'll be adding anything new for the month of June though, because we are going to be crazy busy! It's awesome to see friends out at our shows, too. Trevor has been at every one so far. He's been really supportive and gets along really well with the guys.
I grew up watching my dad play and have always know that there are some weird people that go out to hear music. So it was only a matter of time before I got my own first strange experience. That happened at one of our shows about a month ago. Once the night was completely finished and we were packing everything up, a girl came up to me and complimented me.... at first. She told me that she loved my voice and that I sounded like Amy Lee. I will take that comparison any day because that's amazing. She also told me how beautiful I was.... but (as she started playing with my hair) this fake blonde shit has to go. She said the blonde was doing nothing for me and didn't draw enough attention. She continued on and told me that I needed to lose my glasses, I needed to show more skin and be more sexy and I also needed to get a heavily padded bra since I have small boobs. She hated what I was wearing. This whole time, all I could really do was smile at her. She didn't offend me one bit and I have to say that that's a great feeling. Everyone is allowed to have their opinions and I just simply didn't agree with hers. I'm not sure if it has something to do with me getting older and just being comfortable in my skin, but I just wasn't offended or angry by anything that she said. Apparently, this was incredibly shocking to Trevor, who was really pissed. In a way, that was really nice because I knew that he just didn't want her to hurt my feelings and he thought she was being really rude. She was drunk and probably didn't even remember any of it the next day. The best part for me was when my friend Sarah marched up to us, stood next to me and put her arm around me and said, "I think she's beautiful just the way she is and I don't think she needs to change a thing. I love her the way she is." That right there is one reason why she is one of my best friends. She always has my back. I'm sure there will be many more strange experiences for me in the future.
Other than the band and music, my biggest hobby has been reading and buying books. I can't believe this wasn't always a huge hobby of mine, but I love it so much now. I just wish I could get Trevor to love reading as much as I do. Any time he sits down to read, he ends up falling asleep shortly after. I have to take a lot of breaks because I have a hard time sitting still, but I've been reading quite a bit. I've been keeping a reading journal to keep track of everything I read throughout each month. I think it'll be interesting to look back on someday. It will be amazing when I have a notebook completely filled with things that I've read.
Lately, Trevor and I have been a bit obsessed with babies. We both want one really badly and it's been getting me down occasionally. Our second baby would be due in 8 days. It's crazy to think about. The first baby would be 9 months old now, which is even crazier. A couple months ago, I thought that maybe we had gotten pregnant again, but I ended up being wrong. If I didn't hate my period before, I definitely hate it now. It's just a sign that something we want so badly isn't happening yet. We kind of assumed that once we really started trying, it wouldn't happen right away for us. I just hope it happens soon. I want to be a mommy so badly. I know Trevor is ready too. Hopefully it will happen for us. We just need to start hanging out with our friends that have babies so we can get our baby fix. Any volunteers? :)
