This Could Be A Bumpy Ride

This past Sunday was just like most Sundays for Trevor and I. We both slept in and cuddled with the doggies. Only thing is that Trevor didn't know I snuck out at one point. I've been ridiculously tired and have been sleeping even worse than usual. It all suddenly made sense.

That's right. It's time for try #4. I am very, very early. Only just over 4 weeks. We didn't want to make an announcement, for obvious reasons, but I wanted to blog through my experiences with this pregnancy.

We made a plan with our doctor to try something different this time. I am taking progesterone for the first trimester. Hopefully it will help me maintain this pregnancy. I'm not super excited about having to try this method, but when you want a baby, you'll do anything.

I will say that this is the earliest I've ever experienced symptoms. Like I said, my sleep has been absolute shit. I've always been a terrible sleeper, but it's just gotten so much worse. 

I'm happy to know that this is somewhat normal. I was starting to lose my fucking mind. I still might, but at least I know the reason now. I have been taking naps and getting sleep whenever my body will allow me. Tracking my sleep with my FitBit is slightly hilarious and also depressing. I suppose this will be my practice for when a baby is actually here.

Speaking of, I am personally not getting too excited yet. It's way too early and with what we have been through, I just can't. Trevor is excited but cautious. It's awful not being able to allow myself to feel the way I should feel, but I would honestly rather be prepared for the worst. Well, as prepared as I can be. I have hope that it will happen. I just can't be sure it's this time. Not just yet.

Aside from the super shitty sleep, I've also been incredibly nauseous and hungry. I haven't actually gotten sick yet, but every now and then, the nausea hits. I have crackers on my bedstand. I've also been wanting things like soup and salads. Stuff that's fairly easy to eat. I'm just constantly hungry right now. I wake up because I need food. So, if this pregnancy continues to progress and I keep eating this way, I will be a giant cow. Although, if it's still soups and salads, it shouldn't be too bad.

They say that the crappier you feel, the healthier the baby is. If that is true, then I will take all of this as a good sign.

So far, I've been on the progesterone for 2 days. I can say I don't enjoy the process, because I have to take it vaginally, but like I said, you do whatever it takes. We're really hoping this is it. The 4th time has to be the charm, right? RIGHT! Please, wish us luck and keep us in your thoughts. I'll keep you updated on how everything is going. *Deep breath* Here we go...