14 Weeks

We are officially in the second trimester!!

We are so excited, even though I'm still a bit paranoid. I think I will be for this entire pregnancy. And then I'll be paranoid for new reasons once the baby is here. 

I'm still waiting for this belly to pop. I can't wait for that. I'm also ready for that second trimester energy boost. With how busy the band is this summer, I'm going to need it! I've already had to switch up my footwear when I play. I used to be able to wear cute boots, but the last time I tried that, I could barely walk at the end of the night. Looks like it's flip flops from here on out.

This is also no joke. That last couple of weeks, I've been sleeping SO MUCH. I feel like I barely leave my bed. If I need the rest though, I will take it. Anything to keep this baby comfortable and growing.

Speaking of baby...

This was from a couple week ago. We were doing some testing and the baby was jumping and moving around all over the place. It was one of the greatest things I've ever seen. Trevor and I were so surprised at how much the baby was moving and we couldn't stop staring at the screen. We both may have cried a bit as well. It was just confirmation that everything is going well so far and the baby is ok. Best feeling ever.

I don't have another appointment until the 30th and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't still nervous. I just want to see the baby again and know everything is still ok. 

The baby has already gotten some gifts from some of our friends. 

This giraffe and onesie are from Aunt Erin and Aunt Sara. The saying on the onesie couldn't be more true. Angela and Katie have also gotten us some gifts. We are so thankful for everything that our friends are doing. You guys are such a huge support and we honestly feel like we just have this big, extended family that is just as excited about this baby as we are. We love you guys so much.

I've had a couple dreams about the baby lately as well. The first one was a short dream. Just me holding the baby and kissing him. The second one was a little weird. We were in the doctor's office and the doctor took the baby out of me to look him over. He examined him, told us the gender and then put the baby back. So. Weird. As you can tell by the words I used, I've been feeling as if this baby is a boy. I could be completely wrong, of course, but that's just what I've been feeling. 

Now, a slightly crappier part of what I need to say. I am fully aware that something bad could still happen. That could happen at any time, even after the baby is born. I do not want to focus on that though. This is the farthest we've ever made it and I just want to be happy about the things that are going right. While I understand where people are coming from when they tell me to still be cautious, or that I need to think about what could happen, it's actually not helpful at all. I've lost 3. I know what can happen. I am going to enjoy the time I have with this little one and if it ends up working out, I will be the happiest I've ever been. If something does happen, I will deal with it then. But for now, I am going to enjoy every second of having this baby with me.